I am unable to describe my current feeling in words.
All I can say is, it's alot more than just fucked up.

I feel like running out to the extent that I nearly cried out.
I can't stand the way my life is now.
More than fucked up but still insisted not to speak up.
I am so tired.
I can't find anyone who can accompany me now.
I feel so lost.
& I wanna stop time.

Can I just shout out?
It's unbearable.
& I really wanna cry hard.